What do you do when your wrong? What should you do when your wrong? Falling into others words and misconceptions, I'm gullible that way, thing is that it costs you friends and self respect. When you keep doing something stupid, the lesson should be learned. If your not getting it, then changes have to be made. I've had entirely too many personal changes go down in my life and it's time for another adjustment of sorts. This one will be hard, because I really cared for the person, but I think it's utter poison in my mind. I want what I can't have, and I seem to apologize more to this person than not. That's not healthy for anyone. It's a crazy self destruction thing I have, and I don't want it anymore. A friend pointed that out to me in many ways last night and he made me see a lot of the negative stuff I do. He said suck it up and look at the big picture, he was harsh and kind, and I need harsh, floating in my dream world hasn't worked for 38 years, LOL, I guess now reality seems be my prime focus, I've been dealing with that in my health, now it's time to deal with that In my head. It's very difficult maintaining relationships through the computer, you never see the faces or get the whole story. I don't like that. I like that I'm becoming the person I really want to be, but I fall back on my insecurities. Habits are hard to break, this one I will be most willing to let go. And it starts now. Today. Change is never easy, but I'm ready for more change. And if your reading this I do think highly of you, respect you, and for the last time in this life, I'm sorry.