Third Law of Motion For every action there inreturn is a reaction of equal and opposite in direction. This week is a reminder of that. Hero's fall, Pete Townshend got caught downloading kiddie porn.....ack...he claims this is research for his autobiography, right! Another great mind snaps in my opinion, when genius drives you mad.....we no longer are privvy to such as absolute privacy. The great internet hath taken that away, we are bought and sold commodoties and the internet is the puppet master. It (the internet) has liberated and corrupted all who fall under it's spell, hero's included. I admired Peter Townshend, I emulated him as a teen with my junker guitar, windmilling my arms in lieu of my damned breasts getting in the way......I painted his face and tried to see "behind blue eyes". I wanted to get Hannibal on his brain. Funny thing, we put people on pedestals only to rip them down we they let us down. It is our free will that leads us to our behaviors and actions.

I had a very Rock n' Roll night of debauchery this past Friday......I rode on the bands bus to the gig, I drank like a fish and only recall being plopped into my armchair buy my friends and hours later I awoke to the smell of the mocha purchased for me untouched. I knew I was tired, menstral and that I shouldn't have had that last jaegermiester....um...yeah...crossing lines not ment to be crossed...ack. But, the blame lays solely on my free will to get fucked up...now of course I will be judged by my actions and I accept that. You learn to do that as an adult, never is the judgement kind, never just.....the story is nothing more than perceptions and untold sentiments. So perhaps I shouldn't judge my hero, but I don't know the whole story so I do stand in judgement till the facts come out. Maybe Townshend made a mistake and if he didn't that's gonna be one fucked up chapter in his bio. But then again, we all have those fucked up chapters.

I'm halfway through Kurt Vonnegut's Slaughter House Five and suprisingly the discussion of free will comes up between good ol' Billy Pilgrim and his Tralfamadorian captor: we are all bugs in amber... the alien explains to Billy that he has travelled to 31 inhabited planets and only on earth is there talk of free will. "All time is all time. It does not change. It does not lend itself to warnings or explanations. It simply is. Take it moment by moment, and you will find that we are all, as I've said before, bugs in amber." We are glorious imperfections in the jewels, good to know, I was sweating it there for a minute. ;)