Hot Sweaty puddle of my former reality Anxiety: A state of uneasiness and apprehension, as about future uncertainties. Psychiatry. A state of apprehension, uncertainty, and fear resulting from the anticipation of a realistic or fantasized threatening event or situation, often impairing physical and psychological functioning.
So, your standing there, things are a little tense, your heart starts to NASCAR on your ass....then.......tunnelvision, little clips of your visual surrounding...in your mind....getting smaller..... ya can't hear anything except the white noise of your mind, you start to sweat. Now your numb, you wanna spew forth chunks of lunch.....your eyes start darting in every direction, you can't breathe, oh the spinning S p I n N i N g, sspppppppiiiiinnnnnning, that's my favorite part. Or say......the urge to push through large crowds screaming........"For the LOVE of fuck people, personal space......arrrrrrrrrrrrrgh.......snarf". The crying is always fun.......all you can see is... well......nothing but a blinding light that you know Jesus is NOT gonna come walking out of, so you hold your breath, staring at the light......you hear nothing the white noise is gone now, you hear only the thump of your rapidly beating heart.....so the tears come, but the nice part is...is that people are watching you freak out. They wanna sympathize and comfort you, this is not reccommended.....it would be like waking a sleepwalker, or say looking at Medusa, you'll regret it. Limbs could be lost.
Coming off of an anxiety attack is like the ebbing side of an orgasm, truly. Your breathing heavy, sweating, and you can't recall that something just happened...LOL......."oh, you have a name?", your released.......you are, above all things......spent. They don't last long, if your lucky, and recovery is assured. My fear is that I'll have one too many and may never leave the state of suspended self imposed agnst and turmoil............
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Worse things could happen, I suppose.
Anyhoo, just thought I'd share!
