Muscle spasms are the human body's evil and ruthless way of letting you know that your body is unsatisfied with current status. I went to the physical therapists yesterday and she pin-pointed yet another spot that she feels is causing the pain....the joint that connects the hip bone to the spine, she treated it with two yanks of my leg and told me to stand and I did, I felt only a numbness though and I was completely upright for all of 4 hours and when the afternoon hit so did the spasms and severe pain, standing was a chore, walking was a nightmare and sleep was to be had by none....er well....by me...broken and fragmented sleep.
I cried all day long and was completely driven to nervous collapse by an angry, obstinate employee playing a power game with her exhausted pain ridden boss. The exhausted boss wanted to chuck a copy of The Dance of Anger at her employee's head in hopes it would lodge in her freaking forehead and somehow by the grace of God, absorb the content of the text, and if that didn't work the broken wretch of a boss should consider ramming a copy of How to Win Friends and Influence People right up her freaking bunghole. Don't get me wrong she's helped me out a great deal since this started, but she broke me......I want this to end I'm too independent for this, I hate being weak and I hate asking for help.......Arrrrrrrgh! Well I'm off for more physical therapy (useless bending of body) this morning, Snarf. :S
