We judge ourselves by our intension and others by their actions.-Ev
You might ask, wtf is she doing up at the crack ass of dawn on a Sunday? And I might refer you to the above quote with a certain assured saaviness or I might say: fuck if I know. I started getting up early in 2002 due to medical issues (rebellious uterus) and when that got under control I continued to arise @ 5 a.m. to 6 a. m. daily and when the back and hip decided to get all Bush-like and declare war on my siatic nerve and atrophy my leg muscle, I continued to get up at dawn to fit in the physical therapy before work and comply with the evil holiday mall hours. It's not so bad. It helps me to maintain the exercise crap and I feel more 'together' throughout my day, the only downfall being the lack of a nightly social life and I'm in my bed by 10:30 every night. 10 years ago I couldn't even imagine I'd being doing this, but methinks when your body starts it's downhill slide, you become more aware that this life is only momentary and you try to fit as much into your day as you can.
The major goal this year (note: not a resolution) is to rejuvinate the creativity, I always say I'm working a project, but I'm not, I haven't even finished a really cool project from last April. I like to blame my job, but that's just sheer bullshit. Time to walk the talk and get on it. I believe it was Christiane Northrup who claims that illness is brought on by blocked creativity, I strongly believe that now. I feel great when I get shit done, when I work my ass off I'm rewarded with satisfaction only compared with that of a self induced orgasm, LOL, sorry fella's. (and that's a challenge not a Fear Factor mission) ;) This year, I create, I paint the painting started last spring and finish the bowls I started at Arts Walk last spring (Thank God polymer clay only hardens when baked, it's the reverse for myself). Time has come today! Time! tick tock TICK tock!
